A Time For Words

It’s ironic to be so far from my world in America but still in the middle of all the drama that goes on in that life. On the one hand, I’m grateful to be this far away and be able to focus on the passions I’ve followed here in Uganda. On the other hand, I feel guilty for not being there for people and situations that I would normally be there for (or at least be expected to be there for). My mind, heart and spirit are in a constant limbo between Africa and America. It feels a bit like those parts of me are transporting from one continent to the other. Like my mind, heart and spirit here in Africa will fall numb because I’ve transported/teleported to the messiness of my life in America and then vice-versa. I’ve got to figure this out sooner than later because it’s kind of exhausting me and thoroughly confusing me to be honest.

I ask the same question to God almost everyday, “What is with this timing?” I trust that it is His timing, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t boggle my mind just the same. At least there’s trust, that’s familiar and unfamiliar at the same time due to recent revelations about myself. I can always trust God, that’s familiar. Trusting people is apparently the foreign part for me unfortunately. I’m trying (and failing a lot of the time) to balance disappointment with grace, Africa with America, my mind with my heart, and my passion with my responsibility.

All that said, I’m hugely grateful for more people in the house. Ryan and Kate came to volunteer last week. Kate will be here for 3 months and Ryan only for two weeks. It’s been so great having more people to interact with and to let in on the projects of Light Gives Heat. They’re helping us decal!!!!!!!!!! Randy and I have been placing little “hope” decals on little pink beads for each weeks buying and this will continue ‘till mid-October. Aside from being a tedious task, this one also requires time and patience. We do around 400 decals each week, so having extra hands and patience has been a God-send for sure! I love, love, love having volunteers here! They are life-giving, refreshing and so excited to be here!

Betty, Sharon and Kimby are really starting to feel like family now. They are a comfort to wake up to and to come home to after being out in the villages and in town all day. They too, are God-sends! I can’t help but realize the people I interact with daily here are a saving grace for me in the midst of my “teleportation” awkwardness.

So, now it’s been another day in the one-day-at-a-time perspective I’m trying to embrace! Thanks God for today!